Discipleship: Ask, Listen, Practice

Let's pray for Jianna.

Lord, we thank you for your love.

Lord, I thank you for Jianna and just how she loves you and, Lord, how you're manifested in her life.

And, Lord, I know that you will be glorified today as she opens the word to us because you've been planted. It's not her speaking. It's you speaking through her. And Lord, I'm so excited to hear what Jianna has to say to us today. So Lord, just anoint her by the power of the Holy Spirit. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen. Amen. Amen.

He didn't say it that nicely. He said, we never listen to women, so I need someone to come talk. So if that rings true to you, you should listen to your wife more because there's lots of really smart women in this room. Right, Brennan?

So when I was trying to figure out what to talk about this week, I'll be really honest with you. When he asked me to, I went no, and God said yes, and I went, why would you hit me in the back of the head that fast? He does that a lot to me. I try very hard not to do things if God says not to do it. I tell anyone who's like, come play for me, I'm like, give me five minutes, if not three business days. I've got to talk, and then I have to figure out if I'm in the mood to listen. I have to be in the mood. He will usually tell me the answer immediately, and then I go, I don't want to hear that right now. So I was struggling with that a little bit because I said yes, and then I said, what do we talk about? And he goes, I don't know.

What are you doing? That's not very nice. So I started paying attention to Carrie. Carrie's been going through the end of Luke, and he's been talking about one of my favorite topics, what it means to be empowered by the Lord. Because Jesus starts talking about that towards the end of Luke. And I said, well, I work. People ask me that kind of stuff all the time. And then God said, yeah, we'll get to that. We've got to start somewhere first. And so he said, do you remember your little brother? Now, those of you who know me, I don't have an actual little brother. I was raised with him, and I got him in trouble. I took him out to the middle of the pasture and said, here, if we go out this direction and they come looking for us, they'll never find us. It was great. He is now taller than me, has a couple kids, still incredibly adorable, I think, but that's my opinion. And he had a favorite verse growing up. And I kind of like this verse as well. It is the Great Commission. So it's from Matthew 28, and I'm actually going to read the entire section labeled the Great Commission. So that's going to be 16 through 20. Then the eleven disciples left for Galilee, going to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. Good, they actually listened. When they saw him, they worshipped him, but some of them doubted. Jesus came and told his disciples, I have been given all the authority in heaven and on earth. Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I've given you. be sure of this i am with you always even to the end of the age it's a pretty good bible verse to have as your favorite mine's way shorter mine's just these three things remain faith hope and love and the greatest is love nice and easy to memorize right but he was always he told me he was like i like the idea of god giving me a purpose go out and do something make disciples i need a reminder what i supposed to do so that was his favorite verse and i been trying to live it because that hard right Go and make disciples What does that even mean So unfortunately only two of you have ever been my students before They know exactly what's about to come. I am a teacher. I teach at Texas Tech. I apologize. I teach math. We won't talk about math today, I promise. Okay? But I like to ask questions and see if anybody has answers when I have vocabulary that we all need to be on the same page for. Okay, so what do you think of when you hear the word disciple? Anybody?

Abide. Okay, good. A follower. That's good. Discipline. Yep, disciple, discipline, hand in hand. Okay, the dictionary, I pulled out the dictionary, I hate doing that, tells me how to spell things. I like not knowing. It says one who accepts and assists in spreading the doctrines of another. Okay? And I really think that that's a very limiting definition because it doesn't include the abiding. It doesn't really include the discipline. It doesn't include that idea of follower. So I have a synonym I like instead. So does anyone have a synonym of the word disciple they like besides follower? We have one of those. Thank you, Lucy. Stewards. That's a good one. taking care of things.

Here, I'll bail you out like I bail out my students. What about apprentice?

Okay. Apprentice is one who is learning by practical experience under skilled workers for a trade, an art, or a calling. Okay. You work under someone else. So I am sorry for everyone who's never had to teach before, but all of you have had to be a student, unfortunately. okay and so I want to talk to you about what it means to be in a teacher a student teacher relationship and how you can use that to follow the Great Commission so to give you some context I seem really confident at the moment okay I've been teaching for a long time I've been talking in front of people for a long time I blame my mom it's her fault she put me in 4-H but my first day of of teaching class ever was miserable. Okay, I had my little notebook. Carol was here today. She was the one who handed me said notebook. She said, you're gonna teach these kids algebra today. And actually it was geometry. She says, you're gonna teach them geometry. It's gonna be fine, I promise. It's gonna be great. These are future teachers. They pay really good attention. They're gonna eat in class, but that's the worst thing they're gonna do to you. You've got this. So I'm standing outside this door, and it's an old door. It's got like glass in there so I can see the kids peeking over like who's about to enter. There's a bronze handle. I'm standing in front of that door. I have this binder with what I need to teach. And I'm shaking. Shaking from head to toe. I'm terrified.

What if I teach it wrong? What if they hate me? If I don't get the first day right, they're never going to listen to me. If I fail here, they're going to go teach other people. and then they're going to teach them wrong because I taught them wrong. I want them to succeed. I don't think I should be here. And then I'm pretty sure Carol kicked me in the butt and shut me through the door.

Because it's not about how I felt in that moment.

It's my job. My job is to walk in there, pretend that I'm fine, and say, hey, let's learn something today. Let me make this useful for me and you, and let's make a relationship between me and my student to say let's learn something. And so I did. They actually kind of liked me. They didn like when I made them draw pictures but it geometry you have to draw pictures I sorry okay But by the end of it I realized I was where I needed to be because that was something God was calling me in my life to do, to teach people. And from that day on, because before that day, I was not going to be a college teacher. I was not going to teach math in the college. I was not going to get a PhD. I wasn't going to do any of that nonsense. It's a lot of time and money. God said, hi, here's what you're going to do you are going to teach people you are going to love them when they don't want to be there then you're going to give them a second chance when they really don't deserve one i said okay so carrie asked me to teach today and i'm struggling because this is the one thing i really struggle with i don't actually really like talking about me and my teaching and what people say about me because my students have a bad habit of calling me smart and I don't like that word and I said God I don't want to talk about that I don't want to come up here and say how I'm all awesome and I could do derivatives better than everyone else in the room except for maybe two of you and he said I need you to talk about being a teacher because that's what you're good at and you learn from me and so teach them what I taught you so I'm sitting over here and I'm like okay smart and wise are two different things but our society is trying to make them be the same thing so when you see someone who's wise you often call them smart not realizing that you're actually dumbing them down okay they're not the same thing because smart means you got it up here wise means you have it in here okay so wisdom is something that comes from the lord in fact if you want to learn about wisdom i highly suggest a wonderful book in the bible it's called proverbs it's one of my favorites in proverbs my favorite guy is 16 i use him a lot because i minister to people in college when i was in college i found proverbs 16 and it says wonderful things like i don't know we make our plans but the lord determines our steps number one fear as a college senior what am i doing next where am i going am i within what god wants me for my life this says make your plan take a step forward to figure out where you're going another one the very end it says we may throw the dice but the lord determines how they fall saying, please, if you will just take an action, I will help it come to the conclusion it needs to be. Because so many people just sit there and never take a step forward. And he's like, just do it. So I love Proverbs. It's pretty great. In Proverbs 16, it says a few things about wisdom. Where is it? That's about the king. He likes smiling. The wise are known for their understanding.

And their pleasant words are persuasive. I like that nugget.

Gray hair is a crown of glory, Dad. It's gained by living a godly life.

Please stop ripping out your gray hairs. They're good things.

So, here's me, probably about 20 years old, about to walk in there, and I have a prayer. And it's going to sound really dumb. Because this is what I was saying outside that classroom. I said, me is dumb. Lord help, help the dumb me. I know smart, I know no things. I don't wanna be smart. I really don't want that. I wanna be wise. So can you teach me that? Can you help me be like you Can you help me see them my students how you see them I telling you they say some dumb stuff I want to listen to them like you listen to me

And that's how my journey began. Now what do my students say about me now? Lots of things. There's propaganda going around about being a math wizard, speaker of numbers. A teacher with the cool shirts. This is how I teach in college. These shirts. They are very fun. I have a shirt of shirts sometimes they're nice enough to say that i actually am a good teacher they say i'm not a professor you're a teacher that's a difference to them my favorite thing they've ever written by about me which i need put on a wall somewhere is she answers the dumbest questions with the utmost sincerity let me tell you something have you ever seen the dumb questions jesus has answered and he answered them pretty sincerely so i'm pretty proud of that one now what have they asked me in return well they've asked me lots of math questions thankfully but they've also come to me with things like loss they've lost family members they don't know how to keep going they're confused about their purpose in life it's college what do I do? I'm being told I'm an adult now. Right? They come to me with, I just couldn't get up for three months in a row. I was depressed and in bed and there's nothing I can do. I don't have a reason to keep going.

I've been told I don't have a reason to live.

I've been told I just can't love myself.

Now, some of these kids I know really well. Some of them, this is the first time they've ever talked to me. They come in, they sit down. Trauma dump. I'm like, Lord, help.

They ask me interesting questions like, why do bad things happen to good people? What's the right way to be baptized? What's the difference between the different churches? Why is it important? why do you worship what's the point of that what's speaking in tongues that's a weird one how do i love myself i don't know about you but half those questions kind of scare me to answer right if you had an impressionable 18 year old sitting in front of you first time alone they don't have mom and dad to call because they lived in San Antonio, right, and that's a long drive for them, and they're just looking at you in your eyes and they trust you. You have no idea why they trust you. Something about math made sense or maybe the way I looked at them that morning, and they ask you, why did my uncle have to die?

What do you say? so I decided I was going to ask the professional on being told random things and having to work with it I asked Jesus so in John 5 let's see if I can find that right here we like John John is really fun if you ever want to see the sassiness of Jesus go read John it's wonderful in john 5 they have this man he got he was uh lame deafened paralyzed kind of just sitting on the side of the road on his mat could not get healed okay jesus comes along sees him and says would you like to be better right you're in a horrible situation you're begging you're You're literally paralyzed, can't go anywhere. Would you like to get better? And the guy goes, instead of I want to, he goes, I can't get better.

The bath I'm supposed to take to cleanse me is down the road and I can't walk. And Jesus literally turns and looks at him and says, just get up and go then. And the guy does. Completely healed in that instance. The problem? It's the Sabbath. If you have not read much of the Bible, the Pharisees love getting on to Jesus for doing things on the Sabbath. And their favorite thing to get mad about is helping people for some reason. That was like their thing. Jesus would help someone on the Sabbath and he'd be like really guys like what's going on so here's what happens in 16 the Jewish leaders began harassing Jesus I read the NLT I love that they use that word they were harassing him because he broke the Sabbath rules but Jesus replied my father is always working so so am I so the Jewish leaders tried all the harder to find a way to kill him they did not like that for not only had he broken the sabbath but now he dared to call god his father saying jesus is now on the same side the same level as god so jesus replied i tell you the truth the son can do nothing by himself he only does what he sees his father doing whatever the father does the son does for the father loves the son and shows him everything he's doing in fact the father will show him how to do even greater works than healing this man if jesus needs to ask god how do i do this and for permission don't i i don't know about you but that's a lot of responsibility off my back someone else has the answer for how to answer those questions if i will just stop and say, God, what do you want me to do?

What is the wisdom you have for this person today?

Suddenly it's not my problem. It's what does God want to do? It's on him. It's his responsibility. You pray it through.

So that's fine and dandy, but it's always easier said than done. How do I ask God and then receive?

Because it seems like it should be that simple. Well, in fact, it should be, but we always like three-step processes, right? You need three steps.

Here's what I have figured out, building wisdom in the Lord. Number one, you have to ask. If you do not ask, you cannot receive.

I've been teaching, and I can say I have students that are my students, and I have students who are not my students. I have students who attend my lectures and are there every day. Every single day. They will tell me this. Look, Dr. J, I have 100% attendance. I said, then why are you failing my tests? They're not actually paying attention. They are a body in a seat. They have no idea what's going on. They're just here to be here. In order to have an apprenticeship and a teacher-student relationship both parties have to buy in. You cannot learn if you do not trust the teacher, and the teacher cannot teach you if the student is not ready to learn. It is a conversation between two people that builds a relationship. If one end is broken, no matter the reason, there's no communication that can happen, you're not in an apprenticeship. You are in a, I'm hanging out with you just to be with you and hang out, and I hope that being in your presence makes me holier. It's not how it works. You've gotta do it. Number two, you have to listen.

This is usually the hardest one. I spent a lot of my life growing up listening on accident did not realize that what I was doing I got in trouble all the time for talking to people at school and so all I could do was listen if I going to be quiet I learned how people talked about each other I learned how evil small junior high girls are sometimes They were not very nice. But I also learned how people learned and thought about things because they would talk and that really helped later because I was able to understand their perspectives. the best teachers i've ever met and i've met quite a few of them spend just as much time listening to their students as they do talking to them if i have a student who doesn't understand what's going on and i keep just repeating the same thing over and over again there's nothing that i can do unfortunately in the discipleship calling you have to do both you have to be the students and you have to be the teacher because if all you're doing is being a student you're never actually going to learn the material one of the things that we tell our students that are kind of higher up and worried about their test i said you want to learn it go tutor your friend you will find that you do not know it until you have to explain it to someone else and realize i don't know what i'm saying right when you can explain something to someone else and teach it to them you've truly mastered the subject that's what discipleship is about Not only do you learn to be a disciple under Jesus, you then go and do it with someone else so you can be better at discipleship. It's a cycle.

Proverbs 9.10 says, Fear of the Lord is the foundation of wisdom. Knowledge of the Holy One results in good judgment. So I need to respect the Lord, and I need to learn from him. If you really don't know, and you don't know where to start, I have a great place. this is God's entire being written in a book if you are ever asking yourself what does God's voice sound like is this voice in my head me or God is this my conscience or is this the Holy Spirit trying to talk to me you test it against this if it said something that's not in this book like you're awful you're horrible the worst person ever that isn't Jesus it has to match what's in here because this is the living word. So if you're confused and you don't know what God sounds like, start reading. That's the best way to build confidence because oftentimes that little voice in your head that sounds like you might actually be God.

Actually, it probably is God. He sounds like me slapping me upside the back of the head almost every Tuesday. That is our Tuesday thing.

In John 3, it talks about Nicodemus, which Gary's talked about before. Nicodemus is a Pharisee, okay? He is one of those hoity-toity, higher than you, just try to get Jesus killed in the last passage I read, right? He's one of those. But he decided that he would actually listen to Jesus, and he believed him. Did you know that the most famous verse of all time from the Bible comes from that conversation with Nicodemus? John 3.16, God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

This guy went in the middle of the night, mind you. He was terrified. He did not want to be caught by the other Pharisees, but he needed to know the answer to one question, and one question only.

Actually, he didn't even know he needed that answer.

Because really all he did when he came in is he says after one dark evening he came to Jesus saying, Rabbi, we all know that God has sent you to teach us. Your miraculous signs are evident that God is with you. That's all he says.

I love Jesus He so funny He goes I tell you the truth Unless you born again you cannot see the kingdom of God There no segue into that He just goes oh hi Hi Nicodemus. Have you been born again? Jesus knows what you need. He knows your actual questions. I will have a student come into my office and say, I need help with the homework. homework. And I look at them and I said, do you have a question on the homework that you need help with? They're like, I don't get any of it. I said, that's not true. Never been true. So I said, pull it up. Let's look at it. Nine times out of ten there is an underlying problem that is not the actual question that they're struggling on. It's, I can't figure out how to put this in my calculator. Or, I wasn't paying attention and so I didn't understand this became this. Or it was, I don't understand these math symbols on this page. That happens a lot. Maths and Bulls are weird.

Jesus is the ultimate person to sit down and look at you in the eye and say, I know what your problem is. You don't have to tell me. You don't have to come to me with a pretense. Just ask the problem because he listens to you. Right?

And last but not least, we have ask, we have listen, and we need put into practice.

Sorry, Carol Ann, if you want to learn math, you have to practice it. I know. Okay? That's true in anything. If you want to be an actual expert in something, you have to do it. If he says, go to McDonald's. I know you hate McDonald's and you really don't want it today, but there's a girl there who just started her first shift and she's freaking out and she's about to start crying in the bathroom. You're going to go to McDonald's and go to the bathroom and find a girl crying there. And then you're going to hug her and say it's fine. and then she's going to go back to work. I wish I could say that that was just a hyperbole. I have done that before. Okay? I used to end up at Taco Bell in Oklahoma because I didn't know why. I didn't want to eat Taco Bell, but I was like, I want Taco Bell now. Turns out there's a crying girl in a restaurant that I needed to talk to that day. I had a guy who had had a breakup. Ended up at Firehouse Subs. He just needed someone to talk to. He had a much better day after I was there. Also, the food was pretty good. I'm just saying.

If God says to move, the best thing you can do is move. Don't just put words out of your mouth. Don't say, I'm going to pray for you. Pray for them.

If you don't put your money where your mouth is,

then no one will ever believe that you have a relationship with God. Because you probably don't.

If you ever feel like you're struggling with talking with God, I can tell you this one thing. God's not the problem. He never closes communication with you. If you ever feel like you can't talk to him, it's because you stopped talking to him. You closed the lines of communication and you didn't listen. As the de facto expert in not listening to God when he's talking to you, I will tell you it was me every time.

If God says to do it, try to do it. If he doesn't use you, he will use someone else and you will regret it. Because you will feel like you have missed out on an opportunity. If you're ever scared of something, nine times out of ten, if it's something godly you're being asked to do, that fear is there to keep you from doing it. That's how I figure out what to do. I'm like, hmm, am I scared of doing that? That means I need to do it. That's not good. What did Jesus do? That's what they have on all the bracelets, right? He doesn't hesitate. He says, get up and go. You're healed. Don sin again Let try again And here my best advice I got this from my preacher in Oklahoma He wonderful Pastor Mike. He liked to talk about training. I don't know about you, but I cannot just deadlift a thousand pounds. That's not me. I can't even deadlift a hundred pounds. And if I wanted to, am I going to start immediately with a hundred pounds? No, I'm going to die. I've already almost done that before. Just, okay? Start with five pounds. Okay? He called them the gorillas. If you want to fight the 100-pound gorilla, start with the five-pound gorilla. If you will trust God in the small things, he will keep giving you more and more until suddenly you find yourself in front of a 100-pound gorilla going, hello, how's it going? You don't scare me whatsoever. I have a God that's bigger than you. even though you're 100 pounds. If you will try it with a little, he will give you a lot.

I'm almost done, I promise.

If it's just that easy, ask, listen, and put into practice, why don't we do it more?

There has to be something getting in the way. Something that causes fear.

I think the greatest obstacle is pride. And it comes in two forms.

The first set of pride is what I like to call thinking you're all that in a bag of chips. You're the de facto, you're the one who knows everything. You think that you know how to do it better than Jesus knows how to do it. He tells you to go do something, you're like, okay, look, I could open a small church, or I could start a megaloplex. That'd be way better. Get thousands in the door. because I just need you to love five people. The other one is the one that I had on my first day of teaching, thinking you're the unfortunate dregs at the bottom of a teacup nobody wants anymore.

Thinking that you're going to mess up, you're going to ruin a plan, you're going to ruin thousands of people's future because you're not good enough. but they're both pride because pride is just thinking you know better than god and guess what god calls you he calls you beloved he calls you amazing calls you wanted he also calls us to be servants that means we cannot be the best because the greatest of these is the least and the least is the greatest of these

john the baptist really struggled with this i say he struggled with it he really took it in stride but he was tempted with it you see when jesus started baptizing people people started going to jesus to get baptized he had a following people loved john the baptist they thought he was awesome so it says at this time jesus had left to jerusalem john the baptist was baptizing in anon near salem because there was plenty of water there you just needed to get him wet and the people kept coming to him for baptism this was of course before john was thrown into prison a debate broke out between john's disciple and a certain jew over ceremonial cleansing so john's disciple came to and said, Rabbi, this man we met on the other side of the Jordan River, the one you identified as the Messiah is also baptizing people. And everyone's going to him instead of you. And John replied, no one can receive anything

God gives it from heaven. You yourselves know how plainly I told you I'm not the Messiah. I'm only here to prepare the way for him. It is the bridegroom who marries the bride and the bridegroom's friend is simply glad to stand with him and hear the vows. Therefore I'm filled with joy at his success, glad to stand with him. He must become greater and I must become less and less. I must become less and less. He must become greater and greater. He's a big deal. John was probably the biggest deal other than Jesus back then. Everybody went to get baptized by him. And when Jesus found success, he didn't say, it's about me, I'm awesome, I can baptize. I baptized that guy over there, man. It was great. he came there was like fire that rained down from above it was awesome no he's like go get baptized by him he's better than me he has what you want when you are discipling it's not about you it's about god in you it's not i'm smart i'm wise it's this is what god has to tell you today this isn't false humility either you can't do the other thing woe is me i am but nothing but dregs in the bottom of this teacup you have a purpose your purpose is to love them and teach them as jesus taught you and loved you if you do that god starts being glorified they start seeing him in you instead of you and you and if you really think you're in the way you're not alone because paul did that see if i can find it good old second corinthians if you ever feel like you're having a horrible time go talk to paul he's great he loves talking about how bad he is so in second corinthians 12

1 and 10 i have too many bookmarks this boasting will do no good but i must go on i will reluctantly tell you about the visions and revelations i've had from the lord you see i was caught up in that in the third heaven 14 years ago whether i was in body or out i don't know only god does yes only god knows whether i was in my body or outside of it but i know this i was caught up to paradise and heard things so astounding that they cannot be expressed in words, things no human is allowed to tell. That experience is worth boasting about, but I'm not going to do it. I will only boast about my weakness. If I want to boast, I would be no fool in doing so, because I would be telling the truth, but I won't do it, because I don't want anyone to give me credit beyond what they can see in my life for hearing my message. Even though I have received such wonderful revelations from the Lord, so to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud.

He's also a little extreme in the way he describes himself there.

But the essence is there. I'm not going to boast about what I did.

I'm going to testify about what Jesus did in my weakness.

I'm going to tell you a secret. We don't plan the songs every Sunday according to whatever we do and preach about. When we sing a song and Carrie suddenly preaches about exactly what we sang in our song, it's Kurt listening to the Holy Spirit because he sends me the songs. And so we were singing today and it was Christ be magnified, right? All of the songs today were about being with God, living with God, and letting him be glorified instead of you.

Because he wants you to feel like you're doing something. He wants you to feel your purpose, and he wants you to know that being with him is how you do so. Because that relationship is what fills the hole in your heart that makes you feel like you have nothing and are nothing. But you got to let go and let them do it.

This is the part I don really like talking about but God said do it so I have to they see Jesus in me when every other professor tells them no you're just going to fail you've been in a bed for two months you're missing half the class you should just drop I turn and say do you want to pass what will you do to do it here's what I can provide you you've got two weeks you have to prove to me you're working on it I'm gonna give you a second chance and they either do one of two things they go home and they never touch it again and they drop or they go home and they work their butt off until they get caught up they'll come back to my office and ask questions every time I file paperwork that I don't want to file the kid will come back because they trusted me enough to tell me in the first place that it happened and they're willing to ask me to help them again that's Jesus he understands you mess up he understands that in the learning process you're going to get it wrong he understands that sometimes you just gotta give him a second chance or it's never going to happen and they see jesus in that because they ask me questions like do you go to church why do you do it that way my friends online asked me i thought all college professors are supposed to be no always done by the deadline you got no second chances you figure it out and i said that's because all the other college professors are like that. Someone has to show some grace. Because the one thing they never learned how to do is ask for help.

And that's all Jesus wants you to teach someone how to do. Ask for help.

So, if you want to go and make disciples of all men,

remember the last line of the Great Commission. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I've given you. not that part this part and be sure of this I am with you always even to the end of the age You not alone Stop acting like it

Want to go, Carrie? Did you hear that today? Wise up.

Do what he tells you.

Practice it.

Guys, it starts when you're young. Yeah. Do you young guys and young ladies hear me?

Wise up.

It starts when you're young.

Some of us old gray-headed farts would tell you we should have learned that lesson a long time ago.

Let's pray. Lord, I thank you so much for Jianna. For her honesty and her integrity. Her openness.

Lord, for how she sees the heavenlies. And puts it in practice right here on this earth.

Lord, I pray that you continue to broaden the fields that she'll cover in her life. that fruit will come forth.

Lord, she is an anointed woman of God. Lord, I praise you for her because she yields to your Holy Spirit.

Lord, I pray for all of us in this room today that we'll want to walk in wisdom, not smartness, but wisdom. that we'd make that 12-inch transfer from our brains to our hearts that we might surrender all of our will to you. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.